A Winning Strategy

Wake up on 6. Make yourself say it before your day starts in earnest. Make a point to make this number your first thought of the day until you are at zero again.

Make a point to figure out what's supposed to happen once you get to zero.

Later.

I woke up feeling like I'd have to give myself a break today, allow myself bad habits if they comfort me. I'm shocked not to find myself looking for those things. That list. The list of good ideas. That's it today, my script.

And I guess the sum of it is that I don't HAVE to keep it sacred anymore. I don't even have to keep it. I have clothes stored away, for instance, that I don't particularly like today but have the potential to wear regularly 6 months from now.

Since that's the way my head works, I can afford to put a thing away for a while.

I can always come back to it later and incorporate it into my latest new look. It might be positively jazzy, by then.





Remember: You are always making more than this tiny moment you are involved in. Always.

Remember: Pick out an awesome outfit.

I'm thinking that shouting wouldn't do me much good, right now. This morning I opened my whole place up to the sunshine and took my time getting ready. I spent yesterday cleaning, today I just rolled around because it feels like a new place, when I take the time to do that.

By the time I got to lunch I was starving. Sunday means short ribs and mashed potatoes and a proper dinner. After that I just felt like curling up but instead I played board games, watched nature documentaries. Rolled around in the sun some more.

Peaceful. It was an act of will to keep it that way. Funny to me, how peace can be so fucking active.



Today was for looking in another direction. Tomorrow is more important, though.