Wants vs. Needs

I *want* a mural connecting the two big windows in my living room.

Better yet, I *want* three hundred and sixty degrees.

I *want* access.

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I spent the last two weekends trying to make a dress. I can totally see this dress in my head. And I can make it out perfectly while I'm cutting out the fabric for it. Which I've done like three times now.

But when I sew it. Oh my. Everything goes wrong. The material is slippery and stretchy, and gets all askew in the machine. So all of my perfect measuring and cutting. Twice now. Has ended up with me balling up the whole fucking thing and throwing it across the room with a disgusted look on my face.

Then I twist one and I'm all. "Sorry for yelling."

And I try again.

I try again. Remember that about me.

Third time is the charm.

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In the interest of prioritizing I decided one morning a couple of weeks ago that my main wish is for work that I love for loads of cash. Because I'd never ever stop working, you know? I *need* to make something all of the time.

Then I took it one step further and decided that I already HAVE work that I love for loads of cash. And that seemed to do the trick.

Stupid key card wearing a hole in my pocket. You will not wear a hole in my soul.

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I would thrill you with dating stories, but there are not many and they are all top secret, anyways.

Happy Monday. I took a pause but I think I'm back again.